Sunday, October 30, 2011
Neck continues to be a nuisance!
Following last Monday's treatment, I started to get headaches on the Tuesday afternoon. I had partly put this down to the potential stress of having my appraisal in the morning (that had gone very well), but after Tuesday, things massively escalated. On Wednesday I had to leave work early owing to nausea and POTS symptoms. I then felt neck had completely restricted at it's same level of problem -not quite sure which level this is - but I have ended up with Eczema on the left side, a sore throat, both on Wednesday and then a very severe sore throat (now possibly cold) on Saturday. Bladder has been very, very affected and last night (Saturday) went to the bathroom approximately 15 times at night. Sleep has been very poor for the past few nights, and there is pain and spasm in neck and upper traps/T-Spine. Additionally arms are affected and weak. Fatigue is very much around and a very big one feels in the offering, which I am trying to fight off. Mood is affected. I am quite depressive and "flat" and there has been a mild increase in self-harm, perhaps bought on by skin irritation in the area. My behaviour is on the border and I have already hugely annoyed K by emailing her too much in the past week - so behaviour is very child-like and demanding and manic, but also cognitively "fuzzy" headed and very slow as extremely tired. I have to say that as much as K has had enough of this and suggested I found someone else - partly as a result of a lack of support for her from other medics -I too am utterly fed up with this situation as it does not make me feel at all well. We truly seem to be up against it, and I do feel for K as I am sure she has had enough. Before our new book is completed, there must, I feel, be a positive resolve of this situation.