Tuesday, April 14, 2009

All over the place and away with the fairies...

I am not on good form at all at the moment. My legs might well have gone back into their pre-Feldenkrais state and therefore back into hypermobility and out of control. I have calf pain again and so balances and foot work are all hard work again.

On top of this, my brain is away with the fairies and I keep getting told off in class. My mind keeps going into "freeze" mode and I can't access my step memory. I actually feel really miserable about this now. I couldn't look at myself in the mirror because I just look so awful and shocking.

I don't think that I have been in such a low spot for a long time. There seems to be nobody I can talk to who understands what is happening, or can explain why my legs hurt all the time. I feel hopeless.

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